In the following days I spent most of my time developing a term in my mind called “churning”.

It required a lot of energy and silence so I often visited gardens and enjoyed the fruit there, indulging in delecacies such as strawberries, peaches, pineapples and guavas.

These provided me with enough energy to birth a habit of clinging to a thought motion that held me onto transmutation of its negative sides.

It was the conquest of finding the antagonistic element of any question I had and glueing myself to the solution thereof.

The driven adherence to making it through the process to a new state was what I was obsessed with and it was bareing fruit.

Over days I found myself reaching new levels and states.

I realized that I had been doing this for a long time and that I had gotten better at it over the course of committing to this venture.

It took a lot of meditation and practice, yet to me it was worth it – realizations flowed more freely, areas of balance in my soul and body were found and I had yet to find solutions to my fatal flaws.

Areas of philosophy seemed more traversable and soon my optimism was restored to points in my mind.

This would lead me to grow into these occoruances and manifest them, much like setting them in stone.

Some truths will escape you for long times, but sooner or later one does stumble upon them, regardless of time and space, we always find a way to achieve those realities we are deserving of.

I might aswell use this time to uncover the mysteries I can to improve my self esteem if I wish to save Leeza from herself, so in many ways romance was a drive deeply within me. But I could not tear my gaze away from the inspiration I was in.

Sustaining the elements of weakness and lethargy I took to the tasks that each new day brought, entered to doorways I would now be able to find easily and exit easily and enjoy more fluently and with more candor.

It was like taking pride in my work. Albei it was a nameless task it seemed as though I was close to its core.

I studied in grand libraries and churches and found that there were many beings in nature, in particular a frog. That engaged in self harm to grow stronger. For instance a certain species of frog would break its own claw and grow the broken off bit stronger until it reached its own levels of satisfaction.

I learned that it is within this behaviour that the soul needs to go through difficulties of the past to muster a new hight that is better than situations it has lived in before.

The more I thought about it the more I saw that within this intent to triumph over adversity one can raise the bar to the necessary level, which is achievable by each individual spirit.

In this way all beings set their own goals and arrive at the points that they desire.

It may take some time but we all reach or soul purpose.

These and other philosophies held me busy over long periods of time and whenever I wanted to escape there were the thoughts of her – the wonder of what her area of the dark tower was like, what she had to go through and how my obsession with her might have been romantic to me, yet probably the thing that drove her away from me.

In truth it would be beneficial if we could spend more time together, yet one thing is certain – when it comes to areas of the heart the women are in charge.

All I could do was stay true to the gifts in me I was perfecting and portrait them to her in stunning fashion so her unparalleled sense of adequacy could be quenched.

If all went well we would be able to traverse through this tower together at one point and enter those places in reality that would have us exercising our new abilities together – continuing the dance of life, this time hand in hand.

There is much mirth in solitary behaviour, but add two beings to an area instead of one and you shall get double the output with the needed dedication in both of them. Not to mention the tenacity and focus that is needed – the quality of the products might be beyond our dreams and imagination.

Curiously this reminded me of the saying that the best thing for a human being is another human being.