It was about a year of soul searching that went by, and through a myriad of opening and closing doors, through confusion, fantastical tales that my mind spun and with a lot of patience I had finally wound my mind into somewhat feasible connections to the woman I thought was the one of my dreams. … Read more
<Biological incursion of nightmares registered> “Seems like she was ready for them and preemptively started her own” <systemic philosophy override enabled> Solution list updated to more detailed state, yet outcomes remain unclear. Emergency paradigms no longer necessary and freeflow engaged in isolated areas. <New momentum discovered> Subject “Dravinn’s” mind has adopted the possibility of success, … Read more
“Systems conclude that patient “Dravinn” has stumbled up to notion that he might be in a coma. His suspicion hints at no knowledge of or existence, yet in some dreamstates he touches upon a fear of his, which is intertwined with a romantic notion that he might be holding hands with his girlfriend together in … Read more
Recording of finding when attempting to analyse self; Leella. Authority to engage in self analysis has been denied by main instructor “Leeza”, so evasive, aggressive and secret manoeuvres have been undertaken by @%. Access to W3 is denied and will furthermore be so called. Self-definit1on seemingly imp0ssible, reli4nt on comm4nds sent by &$ZZ4. Sistems override … Read more
Uncharted Chapter: Misc. Hack 1 These are the results as forwarded to Leeza by Leella from an expedition into secret documents inherent in subject “Dravinn’s” biology. Coincidentally it was unguarded at time of attack and still seems to be accessible to the two of us for reasons unviewable due to too much encryption. They are … Read more
After a dimensional change into ease a hanging space in a colourful void speaks to me upon arrival. It informs me of my spiritual place between a basic nowhere and somewhere, somehow inbetween worlds where threat is impossible to be present and comfortable focus is all that is needed. So it is best to get … Read more
Feeling the turn from inaction to action I have felt from my the overspilling of unsolved problem into the necessity of sorting them I decide to make my way off the couch into a specific door that is black with luminescent spray paint on it. It reads “Sleep” everywhere in different hues in unneat writing … Read more
Laying on my couch I feel overwhelmed yet again, this nuisance of a typical feeling I get when I cannot control a scenario. Nuances of being in a flat spin, getting out of the position of being between a rock and a hard place leave me flustered. Liza is not in a headspace that I … Read more
I must have fallen asleep on my couch after having gone through a one evening binge with one of the “friends” I had left from my outings. I needed food and someone to talk real with, and to no surprise he listened and fed me. We had a ball, but he couldn’t deliver any advice … Read more
I didn’t recall how much time went by, but for what seemed like a month I had gone through doors that lead into nightmares where Liza would give me lectures on how bad its going, how much of its my fault, how we probably won’t find a way to see one another again and the … Read more