This question has come up to the surface recently, and the answer is yes. But more importantly the journey to seeing that I have virtue fascinated me.

There are glimpses of people appreciating me and seeing virtue in me that I denied due to thinking its too good to be true. Never feeling as though I deserve to walk with a chip on my shoulder being aware of my virtue I neglected myself. There is this light that shines on a person when another appreciates them and holding on to it or carrying it with you is in my opinion a form of vanity if that virtue is not recognized by the self.

Having to realize that I have virtue for myself made me confident that I can be a bit happier about myself and no longer dismiss appreciation so greatly – always turning a blind eye to the good.

Growing up I got the sense that you do not accept the good that you are for only good is that good, so you better come clean with being less than that. In my journey through the spirit I have since come to realize that you need to build yourself in the spirit, some kind of passive knowing of what you are that is not directly the ego. Maybe I’m wrong about this and I am actually pleasing a realistic ego that is humble for it is a kind of growing in knowing more than attaching and creating or even lending.

There are many opinions I can go along with that tell me I am great and wonderful and so on, but this would be others opinion. This time I discovered it for myself in a koi way, not trying to be unrealistic or fake. Its new to me as I think many things will be in my future for I have recently stumbled upon my denial. Realizing that I am prone to denial I can find spots in my conscience that are denying certain aspects of me and I search and transmute, because destroying doesn’t work – I learnt that in a hard way too.

Just now I realized that there are villains in the world and that there are actually some people that could be described as monsters of the spirit. I lived with the denial of that almost all my life, never recognizing that there is some form of me that actually has evil at heart.

Life is constant reflection so I had to realize that I was implying things that didn’t exist into the world and thwarting myself with love as the bait. Having learnt first hand that these beings exist is still quite a shock to me even though to most people its normal, and that just proves what denial can do to a person. Finding my perception so skewed into the blissful place I make of it I constantly found errors that I did not foresee, hence my blue-eyedness. Like a blind spot that I must repair to have a proper mirror again.

Fortunate that I have more spiritual work to do I let go of the notion that I will ever be done. In conversation I spoke about how the spirit is like the wave building up and if your practiced you’ll soften it so that it balances out, but if you deny then it will eventually crash onto you and it’ll continue this behaviour until you learn to steer that curving motion in that area of your life so that you mostly have running water instead of being the beach that is the crash spot.

Returning to virtue – you can notice in your heart and mind if your on any journey – it does not specifically have to be virtue – the flow and whether your building a wave that will crash on you or whether your quelling it to make still waters.

So if you will, go onto the journey of finding your virtue – you will know it to be true when it aligns with your life purpose and you can recognize it. As an exercise take me as someone that knows for certain that you have virtue, for there is no-one like you in this world.