The world’s probably tired of me raving about how great music is but I have to mention it for the Nth time – get yourself that magic playlist and just run with it. Its incredible what a positive effect it has on the spirit to continually be reminded of good things.

It doesn’t have to be happy music – this implies that you rely on the music to make you happy when in truth its on the inside.
Tailor make a group you can randomly move through, get yourself some wireless headphones and jam. I talk from experience when I say that this self-brainwashing works tremendously well.

It creates a comfort zone that morphs with each song, so its ever changing as your mind reflects naturally on the lyrics and the riffs.

Make sure its ONLY stuff you like and don’t get lazy, thinking ya this is OK, ill listen to it or not bob your head or move your body. I probably stay fit enough simply through dancing when no-one is watching. It goes as far as getting into that zone when I have my “do not disturb – headphones” on. Everyone knows that I’m having a great time and it helps me get into the vibe of me being me around other people – which is something I have struggled with in the past and am still learning to get really comfortable with.

Here and there I get the odd glance of “the madman that has such a good time too openly” or “we arent on a party” – this is irritating to me sometimes because its like I bend myself backwards to accommodate others with their constant problems that mean nothing to me – why can’t they extend the courtesy? Reflecting on that statement it might seem selfish, disrespectful and rude, but sadly it’s the reality of things. We all have our own stuff going on and if we would cut out the constant stream of fake compassion we could get to brass tax.

Maybe I’m just being too superficial about this type of stuff but I am in a state where I want live and be merry, while there are other plans in the world. Its like we don’t take a breath and enjoy fully – we always get halfway there, with the back of our minds reminding incessantly of to-do’s and what-have-you’s.

The phrase of “life is short” has just been iterated to me too many times and all I want to do is CONNECT. I want to FEEL connection more often than special times or rarely. Its as though my spirit is yearning for it and I cannot give it enough. That’s where the music comes in. It breaches that gap when I currently don’t have anyone to pour my heart out to, and forgoing notions of neediness – I’m perfectly fine on my own. Entertaining myself I am pro at, but it’s like I’m in the mood for company.

Almost as if I were a cat that has nearly no needs turning into a dog that is constantly looking for attention and loves it. What I am describing is a fundamental transformation from preferring to be alone to a person that actually wants connection within safe and comfortable parameters.

Not settling for less, but working to meet standards for adequate quality of life.

The title to this “peace” is called madness because its like what I have experienced so often before, when the mind changes the new mind feels so different that you think: “I must have gone mad.”

The reality is though that realization has altered perspective, which has caused a heart-change, which in turn is a spiritual change. This yields greater peace and joy and makes me or you more content with life. A step in the right direction. So what if people find me odd or a lot to deal with – firstly I find them odd and a lot to deal with and I have energy and something to bring to the table while the rest plays by social rules of keeping things bland. Another tough statement but its what my view has seemingly degenerated to. Being so at peace inside that everything outside seems blunt and grey in my eyes – I want to meet someone that bedazzles me. Excitement that comes readily whenever I need it – the same thing I wish to be to others.